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for Amanda Todd

"and i got you, i thought that
i got you. now i'll ruin it all.
feeling helpless, acting selfish,
being human and all.
& they're jumping, & they're jumping
but they'll never get out.
just keep touring, just keep ignoring
be a good little trout."
-- Amanda Fucking Palmer
Trout Heart Replica

i understand
the need to find
a way
out
of this mortal coil

to find
a fucking way
out!|away
from the smell
of pain,
the miasma of
desperation,

to avoid
lacerations
spoken by idiots
that aim to kill.

i know
that deer-
in-the-headlights look,
facing the medicine cabinet
and serving as judge,
jury,
and executioner.

though i
cannot understand
the universe of
your choices and thoughts,

i can
wish you on at godspeed.
may you find
light in the æther
and hope, somewhere.